My Quiet Time

I am an introvert. I always thought I was just antisocial and very shy, but when I discovered what introverted meant, I discovered a true part of me.

I get drained of my energy in social events; I like being on my own, and reflect on life, on myself; I like deep one-on-one conversation. I am a true introvert.

And it’s hard to be that way in a world where we are asked to be extrovert to succeed, to please, to stand out from everybody else.

I need my quiet time just as a hockey player needs to play hockey. Don’t get me wrong, I love going out with friends and talk; but when it involves more than 4-5 people I ALWAYS shut myself down. I stop talking, and I listen. And if it is taking place somewhere I can barely hear myself speak, forget it. You’d have more chance talking to a mute.  That’s the way I am, what can I do.

And I don’t particularly like small talks either. I find them boring and irrelevant.  I don’t need to talk about the weather; I already know it’s hot outside. And that’s why it is very hard for me to meet new people.

I moved from Quebec to Ontario, and with that, I lost all my good friends I had known since I was a child. Since, I have had a very hard time meeting people I connect with. Other than my boyfriend, I actually have one other friend who I feel I can be 100% myself with. And I have been here for 2 years … The rest of the people I know are great people, I just wouldn’t call them to come over or chat over a coffee (tea for me, please).

Being an introvert doesn’t mean I don’t need social interactions, I just need a certain setting to enjoy them. Weird uh?

To add to my different personality trait, I am also an outsider; liking to do things differently, analysing and questioning things most people just agree to. And I must say, I can count on one hand the people I know who do think that way.

And it sucks because try to explain to someone who is very career and money oriented that your goal in life is to be happy, and that you do not believe people should have to work. You get the crazy looks 95% of the time!